Sunday, September 13, 2009

Abnormally Fantastic!

For like three days in a row now I have actually been wanting to go to sleep at a normal hour, and am sleeping REALLY extra well. I generally do stay asleep once I'm asleep, but getting myself to go to bed is a trick and a half. My brain is usually going and going and going, and there's things to read and do, and ideas, and tv. Often I get this funny anxious feeling when I think about going and getting in my bed, nothing traumatic, it's more like "oh, if I go to bed, then I will miss all the great stuff happening in the world that I can't stop thinking about!". Sometimes there's "oh, I should do this cool thing and I'll do it now so I don't have to do it tomorrow or worry about forgetting it" which let's me justify working on it instead of going to bed. At least I'm enthusiastic about the world, if not well-rested.

I also seem to be able to get back to sleep if woken up. Sometimes, to trick myself into "going to sleep" I will just lay where I am on the couch, and fall asleep...but then when my sweetie wakes me up to stick me in the bed I get in the bed and just lay there awake. Last night, at a nice normal hour I just went to sleep on the couch and he came to wake me up and I crawled in bed and stayed there snoozing deeply until 9:30 am.

It's really nice, what a luxury! I just feel slightly more relaxed than usual, in my brain and in my body. I hope this is something that might continue. I don't know if it's the Celexa finally kicking in or what...I hope so. I don't know when I'll enact all my awesome late night ideas now, but I still think this is a trade up :)


  1. I can relate to your being able to fall asleep, yet feeling like I will "Miss" some of, what I call.."Free Time". Can't get anything done,when I'm sleeping.

    Only thing about that is, I've always had a very active....Dreaming while asleep, non stop. Nothing scary(nightmares)just doing things.

    It's like I realize I am dreaming, but when I wake up, I want to go back to sleep and finish whatever I was doing in that dream. A contradiction of life...


  2. Ohhh yeah, I have the really active dreams too...we have the brains that never stop :) You ever talk to yourself in your dreams, things like "this is so clearly ridiculous this must be a dream"...that cracks me up.

  3. Yep. Many times I have dreamed that I am trying to find a classroom at new highschool, and then realize I am 48 yrs old. Why the &*%$ am I worried about getting in trouble for being late for......

  4. Oh dear...yeah I have that one too...of course that's when the ADHD started to really be an issue for me, so...haha, I guess it makes sense. That sense of being late for class everymorning never leaves you :P

  5. Heres a quote by E.V. Lucas: "One of the most adventurous things left us, is to go to bed. For no one can lay a hand on our dreams."