Saturday, June 5, 2010

My dog is more self-reflective than most of my exes...

...and so am I.

I hear that self-reflection is sometimes a challenge for ADHDers. I don't seem to have the problem. If anything, I'm probably way too self-reflective. Emotional puzzles are interesting to solve...and self-reflection is tied to this really cool thing called intuition.

Self-reflection may be a challenge for some ADHDers, but intuition is not. Intuition is that step right before self-reflection, where you go "OHHHH" or "ah-HA!" and suddenly understand something your brain had been ruminating on behind the scenes without your conscious attention. And because you're an ADHDer, you may even blurt it out.

That blurt may be met with a variety of responses, but often, because we ADHDers haven't always formulated a clear path to our answer, others MAY tell us that our answer has no meaning. Because they cannot formulate their own path to our answer, they may brush it aside.
After years of this kind of response, we learn to question our intuition.

I have been practicing honoring my inner voice, and it has transformed my core.

More and more I allow myself to determine the value of my own ideas. I have loyal and valuable advisers of course...every ADHDer can benefit from the value of such counsel...but these advisers are the ones that ask me the right questions, but still respect my intelligence, my ingenuity...AND my intuition.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Recipe for...

...well hopefully not disaster.

What do you get when you take one ADHDer...just add grad school...just add several large life changes in a short period of time...just add family drama...just add major mystery illness that has completely incapacitated me for all practical purposes, for the past month (with no end in sight...yes I was pushing through that while trying to graduate too, which was awesome)...

Do we get a disaster? An ADHDer in crisis?


I'm just doing what I reasonably can to get back on track. I mean I did graduate...I went to the ceremony and everything, trying my best not to pass out while standing there. So that's one big ass serving of misery-inducing crap right there that has been flushed successfully (I managed to graduate with an almost 3.7...woohooo!).

I can't really go in the personal drama aspect but will say this: if you are an ADHDer who does NOT have a talk-therapist, you're nuts. Just plain irresponsible (or just plain uninsured, in which case ignore my nuts comment). If I had not had a therapist during all of the whackadoodle-doo that I've been juggling (or semi-comatose or hospitalized for) I MIGHT be an ADHD disaster right now.

Life changes, illnesses and craziness in our midst can easily throw off even the best intentioned ADHDer, especially when they literally happen ALL AT ONCE....having an awesome therapist and approaching life with a positive attitude can really ease the burden though.

Do it. Do. It. Now.