Thursday, July 29, 2010

Sometimes I LIKE hyperspeed!!!!!!!!!

There are times when hyperspeed is a bad thing. And there are times when it's a fun thing. AND there are times when it's a useful thing.

Right now, I have some scenarios in life that interact with me in such a way that I am not enjoying hyperspeed. For example, when I have already identified that I am DONE with something and yet there are mitigating circumstances, requiring my attendance for a bit longer...shockingly, this is not a situation where I shine. It's not a situation where anyone shines...but for the ADHD mind, always thinking to the NEXT, it's basically hell, and it takes quite a bit of work not to REACT to the situation by doing something cool like leaving or verbally snapping like a twig.

Oh that doesn't mean that we ADHD adults can never restrain the impulse to DO such things...just that it's a bigger struggle to say NO to the inner impulse. That I might have to go take a few walks around the block in order to channel the energy in a more positive direction. I know my limits and a few of them have been reached. It's great for the dog, he likes the walks.

I have many fish frying simultaneously at the moment though, so some fish are overcooked, some fish are just browning, some fish have sat in the cold oil too long and I'm hoping they aren't disgusting when I'm done frying them up. Hoping the frying can hide the odor.

Hoping I can free myself from this stinky metaphor.

One way I have found to cope with these scenarios that frustrate me, is to allow myself movement in some other area. I used to allow movement in too many areas, anything to GET AWAY. Now I try to allow myself the joy of hyperspeed without judgment, just on one glorious salt-flat.

It's a moderated's the only kind I can allow myself right now. It's keeping me stimulated enough to tolerate that which irks me.

Humming along. Back to the sanctioned torrent at hand...

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