Thursday, March 1, 2012

Without Concerta, there are cupcakes...

I forgot to take my meds this morning and I am predictably feeling irritable, but less predictably I have been sitting here all day thinking "Ima kill a bitch if I don't get my hands on a chocolate cupcake. NOW.".

And I wonder to myself: is the craving related to the lack of meds? Did their absence trigger the animal in me? I wonder this because in the days before I TOOK meds, I used to have REALLY INSANE food cravings. I still have them somewhat, but not even half as much as I used to. I used to be the Queen of packing away a pint of Ben and Jerry's with a bag of Doritos. I still eat pepperoncini's from the jar for breakfast sometimes, but I don't  often literally crave beef so badly that I can feel the craving in my actual teeth anymore.

Because I don't have the scientific knowledge to explain this to myself right now, and because I don't actually want to commit a homicide, I put my snow boots on and went and bought three giant cupcakes at the cupcakery. My friend and I split ONE and were both satisfied enough to leave the other two alone.

I feel much better.


  1. Since I've been on meds (about 3 months), I've lost 14lbs, and for the first time in my life with very little effort. Aside from the fact that I'm exercising more regularly, the big difference I notice is that I eat because I'm hungry, not because I'm bored, tired or just have that itchy, don't know what to do with myself feeling. I used to have cravings a lot too, but they're far less frequent now. For the first time in my life my body seems to know how much food I need, and also knows when to stop. Miraculous :)

  2. Good question! I would say that considering ADHD medication works by increasing levels of the neurotransmitter dopamine(I don't assume you don't allready know this, so don't take it that way please),that your cravings for cupcakes have a connection to the fact that you didn't take em'. On the other hand, cupcakes sound really good to me right now and I did take my meds this :)

  3. HA! Cupcakes...

    I would not be at all surprised if my dopamine transmitters were saying "FEED ME" in the years before the meds. Hilariously, this did not result in weight gain for me, because one of the first ways that my anxiety manifests itself is in making me not eat. So I guess the anxiety balanced out the cravings, LOL.