But it's funny so I'm telling you anyway.
Yesterday I knew I had some insanely boring tasks to complete at work...so I didn't just take my Concerta, I freaking doubled the dose.
I should clarify, I have taken that amount before and been fine, it just gives me a harder focus than my usual dose. My usual dose, while not a hard-focusing mechanism, DOES take the edges off of my irritability, mood swings, and general "wtf" that I wake up with every morning. I choose the lower dose because I know that it's going to be sufficient for functioning on a day when I know I'm not going to be in a prison of data scrambling and data entry for 8 straight hours.
Mother of God, I knew this was going to be the most boring day of my life...and by golly that 36 mg of Concerta had me so focused that I couldn't even put my head phones on and listen to music like I usually do because my brain was like "GIVE ME THE SILENCE I CRAVE AND DO NOT DISTURB MY MOJO WITH THIS SILLINESS". I crunched that data like it was marshmallow fluff. For nearly 8 hours...with almost no breaks. And of course, while hardly eating a thing because Concerta superpowers do not require fuel.
I am SO glad I never tried cocaine in college.
Yesterday I knew I had some insanely boring tasks to complete at work...so I didn't just take my Concerta, I freaking doubled the dose.
I should clarify, I have taken that amount before and been fine, it just gives me a harder focus than my usual dose. My usual dose, while not a hard-focusing mechanism, DOES take the edges off of my irritability, mood swings, and general "wtf" that I wake up with every morning. I choose the lower dose because I know that it's going to be sufficient for functioning on a day when I know I'm not going to be in a prison of data scrambling and data entry for 8 straight hours.
Mother of God, I knew this was going to be the most boring day of my life...and by golly that 36 mg of Concerta had me so focused that I couldn't even put my head phones on and listen to music like I usually do because my brain was like "GIVE ME THE SILENCE I CRAVE AND DO NOT DISTURB MY MOJO WITH THIS SILLINESS". I crunched that data like it was marshmallow fluff. For nearly 8 hours...with almost no breaks. And of course, while hardly eating a thing because Concerta superpowers do not require fuel.
I am SO glad I never tried cocaine in college.
does caffeine have any effect on you similar to this? i'm thinking not. lol.
ReplyDeleteCaffeine and I have an interesting relationship. Many people with ADHD of course find caffeine calming and some docs will even have children that they think may have ADHD try something with a little caffeine in it to see if stimulants might work for them.
ReplyDeleteI too, experience a calming and focusing effect from caffeine...but only in tiny doses that don't last very long. Unfortunately if I ingest more than about 1/3 of a can of coke or more than a cup of decaf anything, it triggers panic attacks! Stupid caffeine...so it's apparently not the stimulant for me.
Ritalin/methylphenidate/Concerta (which are all basically the same thing) do not trigger panic attacks for me...happily...because I sure did need some pharma-focus that day! Vyvanse, on the other hand, which is in the Adderall family, was, like caffeine, a little too hard core for me.
Hey, is it okay with you if I start commenting now that I've been stalking your blog for about three weeks? haha, I've meant to comment before, but I usually see something shiny and get distracted... I followed you here from a comment you left on "You and Me... Adult AD/HD" and I just really appreciate the way you articulate yourself, and how you break down your medicine dance, since it's a jig I do myself.
ReplyDeleteThat's all, just wanted to say hi :)
Haha, medicine dance...
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